Kitty
I stood looking out the window of our room at the Dodge
House at a sight I had hoped to never see again. I had just gotten up. I seem
to be tired more lately so Matt had gone to see Newly while I slept. My amorous
husband had kept me up well into the wee hours of the morning as well. Matt is
such a gentle lover and he makes me feel so special when he makes love to me.
As usual my gown lay on the floor, so I picked it up and as I did I glanced
into the mirror. I placed my hand on my abdomen thinking of the miracle that
grew there. How surprised we were when we found out I was pregnant. It had been
discovered while we were in New Orleans. It was still almost unbelievable since
Doc had told me after Bonner that I probably couldn’t get pregnant. I decided I
had better get dressed. I straightened
the bed from our night of passion, and was getting ready to get go find my
husband, when I heard shouting from outside. I walked to window to see what was
happening.
That was when I saw my worst
nightmare taking shape. There below on the street was a young gunslinger
dressed all in black. Several feet away stood my cowboy feet planted arms down
ready to fight. I wanted to scream “Matt no!” but I knew that would be the
wrong thing to do. This couldn’t be happening. Matt was my life. We had waited
so long to marry and now it looked as if it might all be taken away. How many
times had I seen him face off with a gunslinger or an outlaw? I had hoped to
never see that again, yet that is just what I saw when I looked out the window.
We had just arrived in Dodge the
day before for a visit with our friends. This was the first time we had been to
Dodge in several months. We had left the morning after our wedding for Kansas
City. We had several cities we wanted to visit and weren’t in any hurry. We
were set for an adventure without a return date. We just wanted time alone, to
enjoy each other’s company with interruptions. To do the things we wanted to do
on our own agenda instead of some else’s.
After Matt had asked me to be his
wife, he also decided that he was ready to retire. Within two weeks he had his
answer from Washington. His retirement would begin two weeks later and Newly
would take over being marshal of Dodge. He wanted us to be together without the
badge between us. He had said so many things that night he proposed, but I
never thought he would give up the badge so easily. I was so excited and Matt
seemed happy with his decision too.
Now here we were back in Dodge and
from the look of things out the window, my life was going backwards instead of
forwards. I rushed to finish dressing so I could head downstairs. I knew there
was nothing I could do, but I had to be there no matter what. For years Matt
had told me there would always be the danger of someone looking to kill him. A
gunfighter looking to make a name for himself, or exact revenge for a brother
Matt had killed, or from someone he sent to prison. That no matter whether he
was still marshal or not there would always be someone. I knew he was right but
had always hoped that this day would never come. Yet, here it was.
“Matt, we have so much to live
for, please don’t do this. Please, I beg you, walk away.” I cried from my heart.
We were coming so close to having
a home and a family. A place for just the two of us at least for a while. We
had made plans while on our trip to move to Colorado. Somewhere far enough away
from a big city to stay virtually invisible, yet close enough that if we wanted
or needed to we could spend time there. And then finding out about the baby had
made it even more special.
Now here we were in the biggest
nightmare of our lives. How many times had I seen Matt shot down on this very
street? How many times had I watched Doc dig bullets out of him? How many times
had I sponged his forehead, washed his arms and chest to fight the fever from
infection? Wondering if he would live to see another day.
I ran out of the room and down the
stairs. There were people standing in the doorway watching out on Front Street.
I pushed them aside so I could go out the door. Someone grabbed at my arm to
stop me, but I pulled away and went out on the boardwalk. It was like time was
standing still from when I first looked out that window to now that I was down
on the street. I wanted to yell at Matt to stop, but I knew that it would be
wrong. That I would be the distraction he was always afraid I would be.
Doc was just down the street when
he saw me come out of the Dodge House. I think he was afraid to move. Afraid
that if he come toward me it would distract Matt and cause me to run to Matt.
Everything seemed to be frozen in time. Matt on one end of the street and the
gunfighter on the other. Both set and ready for what was to come next.
I heard Matt try to talk the kid
into putting down the gun and walking away. The kid in turn told Matt that this
was the day that Marshal Dillon would breath his last.
All of a sudden I heard the shots
ring out and I watched Matt go down. I tried to run to Matt but felt someone
grab my arms and hold me back. I screamed, “Matt!” and fainted on the
boardwalk. The next thing I knew, I woke up in Doc’s back room lying in the
bed. Thinking “Matt, oh, Matt!!”
Matt
As I stood on Front Street facing
this young kid, I wondered how things had come full circle. Just that morning,
I woke up to the most beautiful woman that I have ever known. The last several
months had been the happiest of my life. Had someone asked me if I missed being
marshal, they probably would have been surprised at my answer. Since Kitty and
I had gotten married, I had enjoyed the leisure time that we had shared
traveling, planning our future, and even shopping with my wife. We had been
able to spend all of our time together doing whatever we wanted without
interruption. Now here I stand once again on this dirty dusty street in this
cow town facing an opponent.
We had enjoyed a leisurely supper
the evening before with our friends and had retired early. I had told Kitty I
wanted to go to the jail to talk with Newly the next morning, so while she was
still sleeping, I got up, dressed, and giving her a light kiss left the room. I
really don’t know why, but I put on my gun belt before leaving the room. I
hadn’t worn it or really even thought of it for months, but for some reason
felt compelled to wear it.
As I stared at the young man down
the street, I wondered if I would still be facing this if I had left my gun in
the room. I guess at this point it really didn’t matter.
I tried to reason with the kid
giving him the opportunity to just turn and walk away.
He refused.
“How’s it feel Dillon to stand
there knowing you’re going to die today?”
“Kid, lay down your gun and go
home.”
“Dillon, the name’s Johnny Bonner.
Name ring a bell? Well you got my brothers hung. Now it is your turn to die.”
“Your brothers got themselves
hung. Not me.”
“Dillon, you think you’re such a
big man, but you couldn’t keep your woman away from my brother. He took what
was yours and you took what was mine. Now I am going to shoot you like the dog
that you are.”
The shock of finding out who he
was sent chills up my spine. The hatred and rage I felt with what Jude Bonner
had done to Kitty came rushing back. I thought we were through with the Bonners
when Jude was hung. Yet here stood another one ready to wreak havoc for Kitty
and I once again. I realized then looking at the kid that the only thing left
was to stand and fight. I had to do it for Kitty and our baby. I just hoped
when the dust settled I would still be alive.
As I watched Bonner, all I could
think of was all that I was about to lose. Kitty and I were together. We had
made plans for a future and had a baby on the way. Yet, here I was about to
face this man not knowing if I would live or die. It wasn’t fair to Kitty or
myself, but as I could see it there was no way out. I guess this was the price
I would pay for waiting so long to give up the badge.
“Kitty, I love you and I am so
sorry it has come to this.” I thought to myself. Then steeling myself, I
cleared my mind of everything except what lay before me.
Focusing down the street, I waited
for the kid to make his move. Suddenly, he went for his gun and I drew
simultaneously. It sounded as one shot. At that moment, all I could think was
“I’m sorry, Kitty, so sorry.”
The last thing I remember as the
bullet struck my chest was of Kitty and the baby.
Doc
As I watched from the stairs to my
office, I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Here was Matt facing a young kid
with a gun. Kitty was on the boardwalk in front of the Dodge House. I didn’t
know what to do so I stayed where I was. Afraid that if I went to Kitty it
would distract Matt and I didn’t want that to happen. But yet, I knew Kitty
could try running toward Matt and get herself hurt. Two people I thought of as
my own and here they were in a situation I had hoped never to see again.
All of a sudden guns were drawn
and shots fired. They were so close that it sounded like one shot. The next
thing I knew, Matt was down and Kitty was trying to run to him. Two men grabbed
her by the arms and held her back. I was so glad to see that. Then I noticed
Kitty go down. The stress of what she just witnessed must have been too much.
Just then Newly was beside me. I
told him to see to Kitty and I ran to Matt. He had been hit in the almost in
the same spot he had been shot a few years ago. The one that sent Kitty to
Ballard. I had some men carry him up to my office. I was close behind. I
glanced down the street to see Newly bent over Kitty. We got Matt into my office and on the table.
I gathered all instruments I would need to remove the bullet. I really needed
Newly’s help but I also knew Kitty was going to need someone too.
Newly came in shortly after we got
Matt on the table. Kitty had fainted and was still out so I had Newly put her
on the bed in the back room. I was concerned about her but knew she would be
okay for the time being. I told Newly I really needed his help.
I slowed the bleeding as best I
could and used the probe to search for the bullet. I knew it was imperative
that I find the slug and get it out as quick as possible. I needed to stop the
bleeding. The bullet had come very close to taking his life. Another inch and
it would have. I continued to probe knowing I needed to find it before he lost
much more blood. Finally, I heard the clink as the probe hit the lead. The ball
had gone so deep I was afraid of the damage it might have caused. I asked Newly
to hand me the forceps. I carefully pulled out the probe. Then taking the
forceps from Newly, I cautiously pushed them down the hole to extract the
bullet. Just as I reached it I felt it slip further down, so I slowly pushed
the forceps in finally grabbing hold of the piece of lead. Slowly, I drew it
back through the hole. Finally out, the slug was lying in the pan. I cleansed
the wound, stitched it up, and bandage it. Once that was done, a gloomy silence
filled the office.
I looked at Newly and shook my
head. From this point on it would be a watch and wait situation. Prayer and
time was what we needed now and hope that Matt could hang on.
Kitty
I opened my eyes startled at my
surroundings. At first I thought I was
still at the Dodge House and Matt was with Newly. Then I noticed I was dressed
and looked around taking in my surroundings. As things came into focus, I
realized I was in Doc’s back room. At first I was confused as to why I was
here. Then all of a sudden the horrors of what I saw on the street came back to
me. Matt lying in the dirt. Matt had just gone down by the bullet of a
gunfighter.
“Matt, oh Matt!” I cried.
I hadn’t realized I had actually
spoken until the door opened and Doc came rushing in.
I sat up on the bed and said,
“Doc, is Matt dead?” Doc came and sat
down next to me. He took me in his arms and held me as I cried.
“Kitty, I you need to try and calm
down.”
“Matt is unconscious but alive. I
was able to remove the bullet. It will be touch and go for the next 24 to 48
hours. Sweetheart, right now it is all up to Matt. I’ve done all I can.”
“Doc, I need to see him.”
“Alright, honey.”
Doc led me into the other room. Matt
looked so pale and lifeless. I hurried to his side and took his large hand into
both of mine. With tears streaming down my face, I leaned over and kissed him
lightly on the lips. He was so cool and still. I was so scared.
“Matt, I whispered in his ear.
Matt, you can’t leave me. Not now.”
“Matt, we just started our lives
together and the baby. Matt, remember
the wonderful miracle I carry from the love we share?”
I looked at Doc wistfully hoping
that he would tell me Matt would be fine and our lives could go on. But the
solemn look on Doc’s face told it all.
I sat in a chair as close to Matt
as I could get. Still holding his hand praying that he would squeeze it. Doc
walked over and checked Matt’s pulse. The grave look Doc had brought panic to
my heart.
“Doc, I couldn’t live without him,
you know that”
“Honey, he has a fighting chance,
and he knows you’re here with him.”
I sat next to him through the night praying
and begging God to let him live. I needed him. We needed him. As I sat there, I
began remembering our lives together. Our first kiss, the first time we went to
a dance, and the first time we made love. Oh, what a sweet gentle lover he was
always putting my needs and wants before his. Then I thought of our first night
as husband and wife.
After our friends had all gone, we
climbed the stairs to our rooms over the Long Branch. We knew that we wanted
our first night as a married couple to be spent in the same bed we had shared
for what seemed forever. We each took our turn in the washroom preparing for
bed. When I came out, Matt was sitting on the settee. He had poured us both
some brandy. I sat snuggled up against Matt’s chest as he had his arm around my
shoulders playing with my hair. It was so nice just to cuddle there together. I
leaned up about the same time that Matt leaned toward me. Our lips met in a
very light kiss, but soon the brandy was forgotten as our kisses became more
passionate. Each kiss built upon the other until all our senses heightened with
the need for one another. As we stood, Matt took me into his arms and carried
me to our bed. He stood me by the side, undid the ribbon holding my robe
letting it slip to the floor. He then reached down, lifting the gown over my
head and letting it tumble to the floor with the robe. I had untied Matt’s robe
letting it fall to the floor along with the others. Gently, I placed my fingers
on the waistband of his pajamas pushing them down his strong muscular thighs
and on to the floor. Matt’s body telling me he was ready to become one. He gently
picked me up laying me in the center of the bed covering my body with his and
kissing me and loving me with a passion that reached all the way to my soul.
When a couple of months later I
found out I was pregnant, I knew that it happened on our wedding night. Call it
women’s intuition, but I just knew that special night had produced a miracle.
Doc sat up at his desk keeping
abreast of Matt’s condition through the night. I continued to sit and hold his
hand. At one point, I dozed off laying my head on the table beside Matt. The
night was long and filled with trepidation of what might come.
I woke suddenly feeling movement
beside me. Matt was restless and when I put my hand on his forehead, he was
extremely hot.
“Doc, please come. Matt is burning
up.”
“Please do something Doc, I can’t
lose him.”
Doc got some of his powders and
mixed them with water.
“Let’s try and get this medicine
in him. It will help with the infection and the fever.”
As Doc lifted him slightly, I
placed the glass to Matt’s lips and softly encouraged him to open his mouth and
drink it. We got about half of it down him before he refused the rest.
After a time, Matt finally started
to calm down and seemed to be resting easy.
Doc then got some cool water and a
cloth so that I try to cool him down. I don’t know how many times over the
years that I had done this very thing.
As I sat, sponging Matt’s
forehead, arms and chest being careful to stay away from the wound, my thoughts
went to the baby and what it would mean if Matt would die. What would I do and
where would I go?
I realized that we hadn’t even
shared the news about the baby with our friends. I wondered if I should tell
Doc or wait until Matt was able to share in our exciting revelation.
I was sure Doc would be excited
and stunned at our news, because he had been sure that after Bonner, I wouldn’t
be able to conceive.
Thoughts of Bonner brought back
all that had happened down on Front Street. Newly and Festus had revealed to us
that the gunman was none other than Jude and Virgil Bonner’s younger brother.
How that family had caused so much suffering in our lives was beyond me. My
prayer was that Matt would recover as I had that long ago night.
“Sweetheart, please wake up. We
can’t live without you Matt.”
As dawn drew near, Matt seemed
cooler to my touch. The medicine must be helping. I leaned over and kissed him
and then whispered in his ear.
“Matt, the baby and I love you and
need you.”
My hope was that he would hear me
and continue to fight his way back.
Doc insisted that I go into the
back room and lie down. I had been up most of the night sitting with Matt. I
had dozed some but not enough to rest.
I think Doc suspected something
was going on with me and knew that I needed the rest for more than just myself,
but he didn’t comment on it.
I didn’t want to leave Matt but
for the baby’s sake I did as Doc asked.
“Kitty, if there is any change I
will come and wake you.”
“Thanks Doc, I really want to be
there if Matt wakes up.”
“I promise you will be.”
So I went to the back room and lay
down on the bed. Within just a few minutes I was asleep.
I slept for several hours and felt
much better when I woke up. I realized that Doc had let me sleep longer than I
had intended. I prayed that Matt was continuing to get better. I got up and
went into the front room. Doc was napping in the chair. I walked over to Matt,
took his hand in mine and gave him a feathery light kiss. As I stood staring at
nothing, I was surprised at what I heard.
“Is that the best you can do?”
I looked down at Matt and stared
into those beautiful blue eyes that I was afraid I would never see again. I
leaned down and as our lips met, it became the sweetest kiss I could ever
remember.
My cowboy had come back to me.
I woke Doc. He came over to check
on Matt.
“Well, you big lug, it’s about
time you came around.”
“Thanks, Doc. As always, I
wouldn’t have made it without you.”
“Bonner?”
“He’s dead, Matt. Your shot killed
him.”
“It’s over for the Bonners. They
won’t bother you anymore. Newly sent some telegrams checking to see if there
were anymore around. A telegram came back saying Johnny was the last of the
Bonners.”
Matt and I both breathed a sigh of
relief.
Later that day, Doc had Festus and
Newly help move Matt into the back room. Over the next few weeks, Matt
recovered from the gunshot he took from Bonner that early morning. After a couple of weeks at Doc’s, Matt and I
went back to the Dodge House to finish his recovery.
I had stayed at Doc’s tending to
Matt’s needs. At night, I would curl up beside him on the bed careful not to
hurt him and sleep. I couldn’t bring myself to leave him except for my most
basic needs.
One evening while still at Doc’s,
Matt, Doc, and I share an evening meal together. Matt and I had discussed that
day about sharing our good news with him. After we had eaten we sat around
talking.
“Doc, Kitty and I have something
we would like to share with you. While we were away on our extended trip we
made some plans. We are going to move to Colorado. We are going first to
Denver. We haven’t decided on a permanent spot yet. We are looking to buy a
ranch outside one of the bigger cities. We will be leaving as soon as I am able
to travel.”
“Matt and I also wanted to share
the most exciting news of all. Doc, I am going to have a baby. We found out in
New Orleans just shortly before coming back to Dodge. The doctor said I was
about three months pregnant. You are the first person we have told.”
Doc was speechless. Even though I
think he suspected something was going on with me, I don’t think he expected
that news.
“Kitty, Matt. I don’t think I have
the words to express how happy and excited I am for you. This is the most
wonderful news I have heard in a long time. Congratulations to both of you.”
After a couple of weeks at Doc’s,
we moved back into the room we had at the Dodge House. Matt continued to rest
and recuperate although the longer he was there the more restless he became.
After another week, he began to take short walks. He enjoyed visits with the
people he would meet, people he had known for a long time.
Finally the time came for us to
move on. We enjoyed a dinner with our friends at Delmonico’s the night before
we were to board a train for Denver. It was hard to say goodbye but we knew it
was best to move away from Dodge.
We extended a private invitation
to Doc to come live with us when he retired. We would have a room ready for
him. We promised to keep in touch.
The next morning Doc, Newly, and
Festus saw us to the train station. We bid farewell to our friends. As the train
pulled out, I looked at Matt and smiled then leaned over and kissed him. What
lay ahead for us we didn’t know, but we knew we were ready for the next part of
the adventure. A new home, a new baby, and a new life was just ahead.
The End
Love this storyJanie. I am so glad someone else believes in the magic of Matt and Kitty. Did your life pics of Matt and Kitty come from an actual Gunsmoke episode? Love them.
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